The Sarah's JournalMonday, March 3, 20034:54PM - hahahahIf you make out on television with someone of the same sex as you, youre automatically "awesome" Sunday, March 2, 20039:31AM - Step lively + Edna's goldish=not so greatFriday night.Slept over lee. We had fun. She rented Donnie Darko. Baddd movie. When I came home yesterday, I don't know what happened. But I flipped. Every little thing made me want to kill someone. I just broke. Yeah, very dramatic. I feel horrible because I've never screamed at Robbie before. I apologized, but I still want to make it up to him. I love that boy so much. I wish I didn' have such a short temper. I'm working on it. Current mood:  pensiveCurrent music: hopesfall Wednesday, February 26, 20033:30PM - Bad nose day.I had an ok day in school. My nose blew up and its red. It's funny, actually. One nostril blew up and its hard haha. And it hurts to even touch it. So now I have ice on it...like its going to make a difference? I dont know, but I hope so. Dad's not doing so well. He can't breath whenever he walks so he's trying to stay still. He said he's going somewhere tomorrow to get checked out. I doubt he will. I love rob. We faught some yesterday...but its only normal. I have homework to do and he'll be over around 7. I wish he'd be over earlier, but unlike me he has work. He deserves crazy credit. He's got to deal with parents who are inconsiderate most of the time,school , work, his new diet and most of all me. He's a strong boy, and I Love him for that. My nose is gross. Why does all the embarassing stuff happen to me? Haha I definetly wrote that. Current mood: I'm fine I swear. Current music: otmop Sunday, February 23, 20039:06PM - My beautiful brother.Rocco came up to me this morning and asked what was on the side of his nose. "Sa, can you tell me what this is" And I respond..."It's a pimple, its about that time." And he asked me how to "get rid of it". He's so cute. I remember when he cut his finger open on a cat can, and he was crying and holding his finger, and he grabbed Jessie's hand and said "jessie, pray with me" and " it's going to be ok" He's adorable sometimes. Much appreciation for Rocco T. Current mood:  thankfulCurrent music: alove.for.enemies Saturday, February 22, 20031:48PM - Gorgeous rainnothing can be obtained by grasping at the wind 11:11AM - Thanks a bunch!Yesterday was fun. Me and lee went to see Shanghi knights. It was really funny. Well not "that" funny but Owen Wilson is great. His brother is in "old school". Wouldn't see that, ever. I had a lot of fun with Lee. We hadn't hung out in a while. Good times. I hate teenagers. Especially with Hicksville kids. Its come to my attention that 90% of them are trash trash and more trash. Anyway, they were all there last night. I figured kids would find another way to spend their friday nights out, but I guess the mall is the only one with other trashy kids. woo. Wednesday, February 19, 20031:57PM - For all I care, set this world a blaze.I want to go to a rap concert. They seem like fun. Or maybe even a John Mayer show. That'd be cool. I don't know whats going on and it's the funniest thing ever. Monday, February 17, 200311:10PM - Snorting for attentionThe good life. Today is, and is continuing to be. . . crap. This morning I figured things would be nice; I'd wake up, talk to Robbie for a while, have something to eat and hang out in bed and read all day( with the exception of trading spaces which I hope is on later tonight) Anywho it didn't start that great. I did get to talk to Robbie D though. Deadbeat daddy made me go shovel out his car because I'm fat, which means I'm good for nothing heh..apparently.So yeah, did that. Then the prick has the audacity to complain that me and Dave didn't do a good job. He's got some nerve. Now the lectures continue on how I need to get a job. I can understand Rukey and Gina, or even Jessie telling me to get a job...thats fine. They've been working since they were 14, I don't blame them that they're upset with me not working at the moment. But Dad? Nooo fucking way. He's so pathetic. He hates all of them everyday, but once Friday roles around, he's got the best kids..and he just needs a little "help". Help meaning 20 bucks from each, so he can pretend he's going to the city to look for a job, but in all reality he's going to meet up with his dealer. And you know what? I could care less. Do as many drugs as you'd like. But don't bring it home. Especially if you haven't paid rent in years and are living off your supposubly "good for nothing" children. He so moronic. You'd think someone his age would realize he'd have to grow up. Haha and whats terrific is that he lectures me and Rocco about staying in school. For someone who didn't pass elementary school, and is expecting genious kids? Impossible. I never thought it'd be difficult to live up to a druggies standards but hey, some fathers are just amazing like that. On a lighter note, Rukey and Keith are getting an apartment together. I'm so happy. She may not like me all the time and we usually don't get along, but now I'm just happy for her. Thats one less kid in the tahangdump. I hope I'm next. My god...I'd show all of them. .......Gina said Scaturro's will hire me once she quits. I forgot, she got a job at a bank. Also, proud of her as well. Its not much, but at least you can move to higher positions. She's happier now. I can't wait to graduate highschool. It's not how I thought it'd be. I figured since everyone else(jess, gina, rukey and dave) all dropped out, I'd follow in their footsteps with no repercussions. I mean, I doubted my parents would mind, and that goes for me too. I didn't think I'd care about highschool, and getting through it. But I'm halfway there, I have no intentions of backing out. I'm still completely clueless about what I'm going to college for. I sat down and thought about it by myself the other day actually. And all I could come up with was an illustrater for childrens books. I like to draw. I dont think I'm good enough for it..but there are some books for kids that have horrible art heh. I thought about being an art teacher. I'd be great. I'd run the year book and do art club haha. It'd be great. But then that whole "i dont like kids" came to mind and ruled that out. Then I thought about photography, but I hate photo in school. The only photo I absolutely loved was one of Rob which wasn't because of my abiltity to take the picture, it was because of his really really really, rediculously good looks. So I'm basically still clueless. Ohhh daddy's home with the boo's. And what time is it? Oh yeah 1:40 pm. I wish there was a limit in your lifetime to how much alcohol a person could buy. In that case, dad would've been cut off years ago. Time to stop complaining. I love mom's crumb cake. Sunday, February 16, 20039:56AM - GirlsVacation's going to be fun. I love Robbie. We've been really good lately. Yesterday was rock, I had to go to ftwd's band practice. It sounded so great. I loved it. After that they had a show at the Odyssey. I think they played well. Not as great as the basement though heh. There were about 30 people there....but even so it was nice I guess. There should have been more...But considering Most preciousblood was playing, I wouldn't have expected more. I don't know. I make friends easy. I love it. Even girls lately. I'm getting along with them. Ah this chick in photo picked up a development of Rob that I made, and she's like " Oh my god, who is this? he's hot". It really is a hot picture of him. I wish he realized how rediculousy good looking he is ;-| Oh well. I hate skanky girls...correction... I hate girls. I wonder what I'm doing this week. I cam'd the ftwd show. I did well. I'm gone... Thursday, February 6, 20038:23PM - Daddy hurt us, real badI love Rob. Tuesday, February 4, 20038:04PM - ..highschol drama...Seriously..Life is so hard! I mean my allowance isn't enough to support my lavish lifestyle as an ignorant, stuck up superficial teenager, who absolutly needs to "sport" all the new trends...or try to fit in while ripping others off. I can't begin to describe how horrible this week was! I had work for 4hours this week, even though I really don't have to work considering my family are well off. And school! God don't get me started. I got caught writing Lara B is a bitch in the bathroom stall! Then to top that off Mommy and Daddy found my out I smoke across the street from school with all the other cool moronic pot heads, ignorant grunge punks, ugly "gothic" kids, and of course your usual "prep" who only hangs with them all for the drugs. My life is too much, really. Like really! Oh boy. I hope my boyfriend doesn't find out I've been cheating on him with all the boys in ESL.Things are so difficult! Monday, February 3, 20035:16PM - november confessions-goodsong.This week was horrible,and great at the same time. Great because me and Rob are on this whole new level it seems...which makes me insanely happy. But just yesterday I found out an old friend of mine has cancer...and up untill yesterday, i didnt know that my uncle had it either. Daniells' is more serious than his. On wednesday we're all going to this type of seminar that'll teach us about his cancer...and whats going to happen o him. I dont know if I can do that. He has to go through 6 months of kemotherapy. I heard his step daughter kristy wouldn't speak to him for a week, she's so afraid he's going to die. Everythings happening fast. The only thing that seems right as of now are my friends and Robbie. I love my uncle joe. He's the only guy I know who can rock a mullet. i pray eveything goes well. Current mood:  blankSaturday, February 1, 200311:41PMToday was something of a break through for me. I feel a lot better about my "problems" with the Rob. I love him so much. I have this feeling time to come wil be better than before. Tuesday, January 28, 20039:37PM - Welcome to the dollhouse..yeahI gost the love bug like whoa. Robbie came over for a little while. We had fun. I love that boy beyond belief. I had my english midterm today. It was so much easier than I expected. I did a rock essay. Im nervous about thursday though, that history essay is going to be hard. I have to study for it on wednesday. poopy's coming overrr. Yay. These past two mornings have been fun with lee. Funny girl. she's hanging out with the dan this weekend..HOT. My tummy hurts. I ate a pop tart this morning and me and the poops had my dads indochickenpeanutfood. Heh satae. I need another hair cut. Hey Aronald is on. Good times. Current mood: cheerfulCurrent music: normajean....this is some hott stuff Sunday, January 26, 20038:56AM - The MetYesterday was rock times 10. I've never been to the Met before. I went with Robbie, Dave, Anne and her friends Kerri and Dana. I saw basically every artists work that I wanted to. It was such a good feeling. I got to see the statue Daves' going to get on his left arm. The medivel room was gorgeous...the lighting was perfect. I had a really good time. I hate the city bus's and taxi's. heh. Today's superbowl sunday. I think my baby's coming over to help me study for midterms this week. I can't wait. I love my baby. Thursday, January 23, 20033:12PMHAH That was the greatest reply ever! Someone telling me that I treat Rob badly, and I'm not better than his ex's. It's so cute how random people feel the need to comment on a life that will never be theirs. Jealousy sucks, doesn't it? ;) Tuesday, January 7, 2003Friday, January 3, 20038:59PMHopesfall on Sunday. Wednesday, January 1, 20037:35PM - Try these other delicious varieties!Yesterday was insane. We had a big Indonesian festival...and it definitly wasn't what I expected. Current mood:  refreshedCurrent music: normajean Monday, December 30, 20026:53PM - The good lifeToday was rock x 10. I had so much fun. I still am. Tomorrow is Daddys' new years eve party. Should be a blast. By the way, recent events show its DAMNED cool to swear in your journal online haha. Fuck on! Current mood: cheerfulCurrent music: underoath Navigate: (Previous 20 entries) |
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